Wednesday, April 04, 2007

And so...

It’s quite odd how fast 10 months have ended. Was it really just 10? Months? But on reflection, it really was a long time. Or maybe a lot of things happened in this short period. Mumbai really changed my life. It’s the kind of city, that when you try and hug, won’t hug you back. But at least I’m thankful it made a little space for me in its crowded womb.

It’s been a long, harrowing session at college. The days ended so soon, and the nights disappeared into darkness. The only thing constant, was stress. Everyone was always running for something. Everyone was always in a hurry. Everyone only cared about themselves.

I can’t say I’m not sorry to leave this place. Some people show surprise that I didn’t ‘fall in love’ with the place. I couldn’t. I didn’t have the time. Of course there are some parts I’m going to miss. Like coming back late. Making my own decisions. Living on my own conditions. But I still wanted to be back home, after a long day. And Mumbai was not home. No way.

So now that college’s over, it feels good to back home, chilling in my room without a care in the world. I know this feeling probably ain’t gonna last long… but hey, as long as I have my people around me, I think I’m going to be just fine. I’m just glad I realized my priorities, and the importance of having a loving family and supportive friends. I realized how much I love them. And for that, I’m grateful to Mumbai for being the way it is.

17 comments:

TripleSix said...

i'm glad u r back....tht's the first thing i'm goin to say..lol

these 10 months have passed really fast...i dn't even remember u goin anywhere..it just seems like as if we've met yday,which has been a really really long day..n today,we meet again...

regarding the realisation part frm ur post...well,i guess the credit goes to the time spent in mumbai...cos it made u realise wat's more imp than anythin else,which wud have been difficult to analyse it,if u had not gone away...n not just tht,mumbai also helped u to give a different perspective of living which is so diff frm here,and also a different perspective of living on ur own..it's not tht bcos u r back,u can't make decisions on ur own,instead it will be the other way...ppl will come to u for advice...wait n watch!!!

guess wat???another thing tht has been constant too,when it comes to bloggin...i havn't stopped writtin on and on for the comments....lol

First Rain said...

True... the moment I stepped out of home, the realization of what it means to me has become so clear, so obvious now. I was wondering on my way back yesterday - even though I am out for professional reasons, personal growth has far outstripped anything vaguely professional. :o)

Ah, Home...

Rajeev said...

I can understand how it feels to be away from home although i haven never been away from Bangalore.
My brother studied in another city far away from home, so i know how it feels. He was just dyin to get holidays so that he can come home. hehehe! poor guy :P I do want to get away from home so that i can experience how it feels :) but Bangalore would be my first love. Till the very end
Glad to know that ur going back home. have fun there.

Peace & love
JeeVY

Random said...

not loving mumbai..tztztz...no good i tell you, no good.

Perceptive girl said...

It's true. and life's experiences never go waste. :)

have fun at home!

Mirage said...

@nika: Er I dunno abt advice, I'm pretty bad at tellin ppl wht to do and wht nt 2 do! But its certainly good to be back! :)

@First Rain: Home is where the heart is :)

@Rajeev: You should once go out and live by urself man...it's worth it. :)

@Ravin: Ish! :P

@Perceptive Gal: Oh I am! :D Thanks for visiting!

shammu... said...

hiii,
Love ur poems :D!

i have always been away from home, and i dont know why, right now, that am back at my own house, i have this great urge to be back in the place where i had done my bachelors, i consider that place more of my home, otherthan that,staying away from India,any place in india feels like home :D :D!!! and so, i would say,am missin my 'home' tooooo much :D!

Hope u have happy joyous days ahead, and beautfl blog u hve got there :D!
Takecare!

desperado said...

you r going to be perfectly fine :)
njoy d homecoming till d job grind starts :)

Gaurav Alagh said...

this is the reason i call life .. a bitch... and this is what follows - I AM A DOG!...
Everyone has a life of their own, priorites of their own...and whosoever says. he or she will be with u forever.. tell him/her that Their is always a night between two DAYS!~...
well written piece!

Rohit Talwar said...

There is more of relief than excitement in your post, clearly. Didn't think this would last long.
But, THIS must have taken your thoughts out for a tumbling ride..hence I saw the complete turnover in the way you took the whole thing. Not that you ever left it, but this wasn't the only thing ever.

I'm just glad you are comfortable now. Hope your priorities and choices stay right, always!

maximus said...

liked the last dance better.....but this one is natural n obviously a true account.....kudos

Smartalec said...

nice post! straight from the heart!
cant blame you for not falling in love with mumbai... i find the life there too fast, the places very crowded and a lot of pollution! but then, u tend to have a corner of your heart reserved for a place which has quite a few memories attached to it!

Jayant said...

You went to Mumbai for a Master's? Or some other course.
Yeah, I don't think Mumbai is the kind of a city you fall in love with. Maybe it WAS at some point in history but, not anymore.
Sigh. Makes me look forward even more to living alone in a Metropolitan. Can't wait!

Jayant said...

I don't know why I capitalised the word 'metropolitan' there. :P

manuscrypts said...

remembered my college and my fave song that goes with it..floyd's high hopes :)

Shy said...

Expressive post ! :-)

Shy

Shruti said...

ur post remind me of the last day of my school...i still miss my school, even yet i have completed my graduation also..
take care..and best wishes for ur life...