Mumbai Matinee

My first week in The Big Apple of India was, extremely eventful, to say the least! I knew it rained a lot here, but there's a big difference in knowing...and feeling! I had not been able to find an accomodation in the first week so I was putting up at my brother's friend's house in the suburbs. Wayyy far from college. And the first 3 days it poured like it had never poured before. So I was stuck at home, watching rented dvds and playin with a bored 2 yr old. Not so gr8 huh!? When the rain gods finally decided to take a break, I bravely stepped out of the house to 'face the world'! Wht dyu knw, the shiv sainiks decide to start a riot the same day! Brilliant, aint it!?

There's more.

College started on the 10th of july. Mumbai was bombarded on the 11th of july. I felt sad for all those innocent people who lost their lives in the tragedy...why them? What did they do to face such inhuman treatment? But it was shocking to see that life went back to normal so soon. In fact the trains started the same night. Can't help but salute the spirit of this city.

I got a taste of the real Mumbai in the first week itself. I was a wreck when I left Delhi. Strangely, I feel safe now. I can't help but hum that old song..."Aye dil, hai mushkil jeena yaha...Zara hat ke, zara bach ke, ye hai Bombay meri jaan..."

It's time...

Don’t really know how to start. Feelin a li’l awkward writing. But I sure as hell missed it! So much new to report! This last month has been rather hectic. Entrance exams, viva, project reports, not to mention, lots of traveling! Spent quality time with family and friends. And now I got selected in a college in Mumbai for my post graduation. So I’ll finally be leaving Delhi for good. Always wanted to be out of Delhi, out there….by myself. Though now, I’m kinda getting anxious…feelin unsure. Always been sheltered and pampered…its gonna be the real thing now. No ifs or buts about it.

I’m gonna have to leave my family, my friends…my home. Gosh! I feel awful… Can’t imagine a life without them…

But I know what awaits me. A new place, new people, new atmosphere… maybe I’ll change, maybe I won’t. I’ll probably become more mature…more responsible, perhaps. In a way, I’m lookin forward to it. Getting butterflies…but they’ll settle down soon enough.

I’ll miss my friends for sure. We’ve had so many good times together. Smiles, tears…fond memories. I can feel a lump in my throat… I better end this post before I start bawling like a baby!

I’m leaving next week…so don’t know if I’ll be regular at blogger. But yea, I would keep posting whenever I find time. I’ll miss you all… take care. :)

Adios

Fir usi raah guzar kar shaayad
hum kabhi mil saken magar shaayad

Jaan pehchaan se kya hoga
fir bhi ae dost gaur kar shaayad

Muntjir jinke hum rahe unko
mil gaye aur humsafar shaayad

Jo bhi bichhde hain kab mile hain 'faraar'
fir bhi tu intezaar kar shaayad

-Ghalib

I need a break. Its been a long, adventurous journey, but I’m tired of walking. I need to sit down and reflect upon all the milestones I’ve left behind. Some rough stretches, some blind corners, some green pastures, some slippery roads. Met so many wonderful strangers. Made some new friends, got to know some old ones. Shared smiles, shed tears- together. But I need to get away for a while. Need to hide…because I’m losing myself. I want to go back to the depths of darkness I came from. I want to be invisible again…

Oh I’m not disappearing forever. Just need a change. So lifeheadon.blogspot.com would be dormant for a while. Maybe I’ll be back next week, or next month, or next… J. And don’t think I’m shutting you out. I’m not. The only person I’m shutting out is myself.

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Take care of yourselves. You’re all such wonderful people and have touched my life in more ways than I can imagine! I’ll miss you all immensely. Oh and if on the way I hurt someone, then I apologize. It wasn’t done intentionally. And if it was, then I probably hurt myself more in the process.

Adios amigos! May God bless you.

"People drain me, even the closest of friends, and I find lonliness to be the best state in the union to live in..."
Margaret Cho

I wish you'd forget...

Forget
those early morning calls,
those groggy hellos,
those long conversations,
those whispers,
those whimpers,
those tears,
those smiles,
that intimacy,
that love…

Forget it all.
Erase those memories.
Omit those moments.
Bury them deep down.
Where you can never find them again
‘Coz that, alone, will ease your pain

Write my name in the sand
And let the waves of time
wash away my very essence
From your life.