Friday, June 30, 2006

It's time...


Don’t really know how to start. Feelin a li’l awkward writing. But I sure as hell missed it! So much new to report! This last month has been rather hectic. Entrance exams, viva, project reports, not to mention, lots of traveling! Spent quality time with family and friends. And now I got selected in a college in Mumbai for my post graduation. So I’ll finally be leaving Delhi for good. Always wanted to be out of Delhi, out there….by myself. Though now, I’m kinda getting anxious…feelin unsure. Always been sheltered and pampered…its gonna be the real thing now. No ifs or buts about it.

I’m gonna have to leave my family, my friends…my home. Gosh! I feel awful… Can’t imagine a life without them…

But I know what awaits me. A new place, new people, new atmosphere… maybe I’ll change, maybe I won’t. I’ll probably become more mature…more responsible, perhaps. In a way, I’m lookin forward to it. Getting butterflies…but they’ll settle down soon enough.

I’ll miss my friends for sure. We’ve had so many good times together. Smiles, tears…fond memories. I can feel a lump in my throat… I better end this post before I start bawling like a baby!

I’m leaving next week…so don’t know if I’ll be regular at blogger. But yea, I would keep posting whenever I find time. I’ll miss you all… take care. :)

24 comments:

milo said...

only i knw hw much m i gonna miss u!! those smiles, tears, frst hand news, experiences, gossip, secrets, night outs, stupid problems n stories, calling each oder fr simply no reason, going out fr shoppin/lunch to talk things out...all this n moooore........beyond d feelings.... i will really miss u.. plss tc :-)

First Rain said...

Hey! You're back and you are starting out on a brand new adventure !! The very best of luck.

Hope you have a gala time in Bombay and have a charmed life. And do keep writing. Ta!

Bhim said...

Mumbai ... or Bombay as I love to refer it as, is an amaaaazing place. I am sure you'll like the place : However, anyone who has stayed at Delhi prefers delhi to mumbai. I'd suggest you stop comparing places and enjoy your stay in one of the most happening places in India. Enjoy Night life, Enjoy Movie shows .. and maybe enjoy your studies as well.

cherubic_chipmunk said...

I'm sure u'll get over de blues soon enuf n become ur usual rockin' self...but for de time being,make sure u have de best time in delhi wid all ur buddies...n hey some1 forgot technology-u'll have no problems at all not being able 2 catch up wid friends-thanx 2 de mobile fone n internet...cheers n take care...ciao

shashi said...

have fun and rock mumbai

Arz000n said...

Mumbai....where where
temme...temme :)

Mirage said...

@milo: arre yaar, I'm already so senti...maaregi kya!

@FR: As they say, "survival of the fittest"! :) Thanks anyway!

@Bhim: Well my first big challenge is to find a decent accomodation! The rest will follow! ;)

@Arvind: Yep, everyone's just a phonecall away! :)

@Shashi: Will do! Thanks fr dropping by!

@Arz000n: St Xaviers...ring a bell?!

Stone said...

Seems like u r leaving home for the first time!!!
Trust me, its going to be fun, adventurous, and will make u a better person!!!
Enjoy n take care!!!!

Random said...

damn...going to the only city in india worth living in! mumbai rocks, and i am sure you will rock there too...congrats

D'yer Mak'er said...

a tribute to lifeheadon.blogspot.com

...n' so life heads on. n' i find certain words so surreal. we say them. n' we just do it. without much thoughts recurred upon them. n' we use a few. so often. without knowin' the "why's" n' "how's". but maybe life has a knack of understandin' you more than you do to your life. n' believe me. your life understands you. everyone's life understands them. but unfortunately we don't understand what our life understands. but thankfully this is not somethin' to be felt sad about. i shall not use the word "irony" but please don't blame me for the lack of a better word here... n' i know you've already excused me for this even before thinkin' about it. your blog looks more beautiful to me this day.... surpassin' all those moments of beauty i've relied spendin' at this place called lifeheadon.blogspot.com a.k.a Illusions... for you look beautiful when you say it. "Life is headin' on"... n' so precisely it should.

n' please don't misunderstand me to be someone makin' suggestions on your life...uh-uh. i'm not. but please let me say somethin' not because these words have some special purpose or some beautiful charm. but i want to say them because maybe there won't be a second chance to it. n' i can already feel somethin' i can't explain n' even if i could... i wouldn't have....

always try to let yourself know what you love... n' more than that... why you love. because somehow life knows how to pay you back. n' it does. i've always loved the word "stranger"... without much knowin' why... n' i kept usin' it every now n' then even when it wasn't appropriate. n' this was only one side to it. the fact that i loved a word without much knowin' a "why" related to it... it was a sign that revealed another side of me that i probably ignored. i never questioned why when someone loved me. it wasn't askin' the person why but it's askin' yourself. i never did that. but finally i did. but maybe it was just too late... although i never believe that it's late for somethin'... atleast for me... as there's no quest i was in. but every lesson has a price to pay... n' to learn somethin'... i also had to unlearn a lot. n' so i did. but i didn't end somewhere great. but got lost within a myriad of quagmires with only one advantage to your side... you just don't have to watch your step!

but i want you to watch your step...now as you step into a much bigger world. remember... that.. this world maybe entirely different than what you might have thought about... till now. but still..it's a very big world. people get lost only to find newer ones... i've always made a lot of wishes... n' sometimes i think... if all of them come true in one single day... this world will look to be a completely different place altogether. but just for the record... i've never waited upon a shootin' star to make a wish for you. n' no.... i'm not at all tryin' to take some credit for this Xavier's thing of yours...uh-uh!.. this goes entirely on you... n' doesn't at all depend on some wish made by some lousy stranger!.... but all i want to say is... this world is not a place where you'd get many people who'll protect you like they did till now. n' so you should understand that it's your responsibility to take care of yourself. because you may not know it... there maybe people...who maybe are not around you... whom you may not even have met yet... but still their life depends upon your happiness.

.. life is not just about "tell me why's"... n' .. "forget me not's" ... uh-uh!.. maybe it doesn't even have any hidden meanings that we always look for... maybe it's just overrated. life is only about livin' it. i only wish that you live it in the best way!"

p.s. i'm out of town. left my phone with my friend's. dont' know when i'm gonna be back. just got somewhere n' thought of checkin' the internet n' found this news on your blog. can talk to you only when i get back but i sincerely don't know when that's gonna happen. but somehow get this feelin' that i might be just late enough to miss you. you might well have just left. so here's wishin' you every bit of luck to keep you happy... but just can't afford to give you all because i'd need some of it for me as well!.. take care!

Mirage said...

@stone: I hope so! :) Thanks!

@Ravin: Heehee...my ulterior motive is exactly that! ;) Thanks neway man!

@Dyer Maker: Good to see u here. Thanks for sharing all that wid me. Your insights wud prbbly be my guiding light on this new path i've chosen to walk on. Thankyou. And i'm leaving tmrw so yes u'd prbbly miss talkin 2 me. I'd tried gettin in touch wid u...left a msg wid ur frnd. Anyway, u take care of urself...and dont forget to have fun!

desperado said...

take care
first time out of home can be both daunting n exciting...but u'll be allright in no time
n yeah hopefully we'll stay in touch

do keep the words flowing whenever u feel like

Pegasus said...

wanting to leave home and actually doin so... yups pretty wild. you might've wanted to get out of Delhi but did you ever think of `being' somwhere else ?

good luck :)

friendinneed said...

megz i gonna misss you lot baby.
u know ! tak care of urself and also of netz.
keep in touch.

orignal_prankster said...

hey mumma'z gurl... trek on ... its gna b fun !!! tc

Mr. Maverick said...

Wish you all the best! Work hard :)

Arun

johney said...

I always tell my friends, and have always maintained that the hardest of all arts is the art of letting go.

But when has written words ever mattered? They are just scribbles on a paper, or in this case, some pixels on the screen. What can they do? A single word may evoke tears from my eyes, but so can friends. Words can give comforts, but so can parents. Words can motivate, but so can our Mentors. They are just words, yes, just written old words. What is anything new in them? they are just like you or me, just alive and real as us.

And now the time has come. The old must give way for the new. The old withers while the young persist. And now my faithful friends, that some calls "Written words", I ask you to carry this message to our dear friend Mirage, that wherever she is, you, dear friends will always carry forth the duty of a faithful friend, forever and convey our friendship to her always.

TripleSix said...

u know wat....it wad the first time thtbhajj,milon i met n travelled together after u guys left...friendship tht the five of us had for three years,cannot be forgotten so easily,atleast i can't affordto ignore it or deny it,cos i'm a hell lotta moody woman,i can adjust pretty easily..but makin friends is smthin tht i take time on...

frankly speakin...i nvr had a close frnd until u four came along....infact,as far as i rem...i always stayed alone,rightfrom those kindergarten days...but i'm glad i wasn't deprived of the frienship bond for long....

u n netra may not be around....but we will always remain together...u,netra,milo,bhajj n me....always together...i dn't care wat we r called:the famous five or the pandavs...but wat i know is we r one when we talk of friendship,and we r an individual when we decideupon our life.....but when the latter situation takesplace..then sure enough,a frnd orfrnds are always there by ur side...

it is a good decision tht u n netra have taken tostudy away frm home...it is a whole lotta different world,but worth it inspite of drivin on the bad road with mad rush....lol.....it's been 14 yrs since i have been studyin n stayin away frm my home...two hostel life,completely diff frm each other(a convent girls' school n a co-ed public school),n now in delhi...once again away frm home...initially it was tough,esp when i was in delhi..i'm sure u know tht one...i was stayin like a refugee in a city like delhi,n completely new to this area....n also migrated frm one corner to another....was it 5?idn't rem....i think u rem more than me...but i nvr felt the need to cry,or humilated n insulted,or helpeless...cos u all were there with me.....but plezrem one thing..the moral behind all tht i have been mentionin about my journey of livin away frm my home...nvr depend on anyone,n dn't let anyone say shit to u....tht's wat i did when i was goin through hink of shit in delhi...i would first help myself,n then ask for one....plez rem tht....

i'm not sure,if u'll get the timeto read this....

god,ihave writen so much as well!!!

take care...n i miss ya a lot...

n guess wat...italians won the match...now milo owe me a lunch,after i treat her with one...lol

all the best

Mirage said...

@dhruv: Will do man! Thanks! :)

@pegasus: I guess i never looked at it that way...:) Thanks 4 stopping by!

@bhajji: Miss u lots too! Take care of urself and the rest! N dnt u dare frget me!

@bhargav: mumma's girl...? nt anymore! ;)

@Arun: Aye aye Captain! :P

@Johney: Your words, ypur precious pearls of wisdom will stay with me forever! :) Thanku so much!

@Nika: aww sweetie! dont make me go all senti now...i knw u miss us, bt we miss u more! and btw u n milo n bhajji will HAVE to come here to meet us! get it??! take care ok? all of u! Mwah!

dwaipayan said...

best of luck..i just wonder whn i'll be leaving kolkata for a job

Kroopa Shah (Kr00pz) said...

Good luck and take care. I am sure you will be fine :-)

anuj said...

best of luck gal .. m sure u knw hw to deal with situations .

jst go out there nd have a ball of a time .. cause this time wont come bck .. nd frndz will be arnd dont worry .

Take care .

The Phoenix said...

Welcome to Bombay.

XIC?

Drop me a line when you're here.

Enjoy.

Mirage said...

@dwaipayan: don't b so eager...once u get out, there's no lookin back! :)

@kroopa: Fine i am! Just a li'l homesick!

@anuj: How can i NOT have a ball in mumbai!! :P

@Phoenix: I've been here since the past 2 weeks man! oh btw hope ur sis was able to find a roomie. Chal neway, tc