Thursday, July 30, 2009

The next chapter

Like most of you predicted, I wasn't able to stay away too long! So here I am, beginning a new post, a new chapter of the second act of life. I hope I last this one out.

I celebrated my 1st wedding anniversary on July 18. Can you believe it has already been a whole year? I can't. It's as if it were only yesterday that I was getting jitters about marriage. Though time has zoomed by, it has left some very major impressions on my life. You see, married life is not the blissful journey I thought it to be, rather, wished it to be. It isn't bad, but it makes you grow up real fast, whether you like it or not.

Soon after the honeymoon, hubby and I were staying together, but not with my in-laws. Boy, what chaos! I didn't know the first thing about running a home! It was literally madness in the first couple of months - I couldn't cook so that added to the mess. Somehow, with help from my mum-in-law and mom, I got things going. But the loneliness killed me. I wasn't working at the time, so the empty walls of the house bored me to death.

During this time, my father-in-law's (Dad) health deteriorated. He was diagnosed with stomach cancer and his condition showed no sign of improvement. That is when we took a call to move back in with my in-laws. It turned out to be a life saver for me. Not only has it helped me learn the ropes, but has also given me a chance to get to know everyone better. There were times when I had to be at the hospital with Dad for hours. Cancer has a knack of taking a toll on everyone's lives. It sure did on me, because I felt connected to this new family, shared their sorrow as if it were my own.

Dad passed away in March this year. The house is suddenly quiet, devoid of any real joy. My happy-go-lucky mum-in-law puts up a brave face, but I know she misses him the most. I can't even imagine what hubby went through...he's without a father now. The thought itself makes me feel like something's died inside me. But the best thing about all this was that we were united in our grief.

Things have somewhat gone back to normal. I've quit my job and have started freelancing from home. This way I get to be with mum-in-law more often. When I look back at this one year, I realize it has changed me. I am no longer the dreamy-eyed girl I once was, but a more practical individual now. I'm still wishful at times, but try and remain grounded. I wonder what the years to come will bring in, but I know now, for cerain, that I won't be beaten.


Alex said...

Hang in there, you'll be surprised at what you are more then capable of.

Shy said...

Oh, how I've missed your posts..:) I honestly hope that the years to come bring you your dreams and happiness. Cheerio =)

Rahul said...

It's great to see you back here and holding fast onto life's reins :)

desperado said...

oh my god look who's back :)
so great to see you back here doc ... pink template and all :)

life will always have its ups and downs...and some little moments in between to treasure

stay strong and smiling

Mirage said...

@Alex: Hoping against hope...! :)

@Shy: Glad 2 knw i was missed! Missed ya too girl! n thanks!

@Rahul: Oh yea, takin life, head on! ;)

@Dhruv: Hey my fav patient! Looks lk roles r reversed, n ur d one treating me now! :) Its good to be back!

Keshi said...

Mirage I missed n missed ur lovely posts! WB. So nice to see ya bak.

Im so sorry to hear abt the death in the family. *HUGZ*

Life is all abt happiness n sadness...they follow each other like shadows.


R said...

This is rather nice. Not just the fact that you're back to your blog, but the whole growing up thing. It's essential to go through these things, just to see how far you can go. I felt that when my maternal grandmother passed away and I didn't think I'd manage being brave - I did break down, but quickly realised my mother needed me more.

And hey, have you started cooking yet? :) I am so happy to see you blog again. As for me, I got a new blog. Junk Text is over but the new link is on my profile.

Keep writing :)

Mirage said...

@Keshi: Awww...*blush blush* Missed ya too! *Hugs back*

Yep, m ready and waiting for life to play its game! :)

@R: Hello! U've got a new address? Well gr8, will check it out fr sure. N yea I've learn a wee bit of cooking so u cant make me jealous nemore wid stories of McChicken burgers!

Its so good to be bak!

Stone said...

Welcome back...and all the best!

Deepali said...

Welcome back :)

Sorry about your father-in-law.

Glad to see you have adapted so nice and that everything is going well.

Merlin said...

Beautiful post. Makes me realize that we all go through so much in life, and some people are so brave about it. It makes me able to confront my pains with a braver face. Thanks. And may God give strength to your Mother In Law and husband.

Ketan said...

A very insightful and hard-hitting post!

R said...

So anything signature M yet?

Mirage said...

@Stone: Thanks!

@Deepali: Thanks to my hubby and in-laws for being the best! :)

@Merlin: Thankyou :)

@Ketan: Guess, truth always does make an impact :)


workhard said...

That is so sad....

Marital life is a whole new phase...

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