Friday, September 08, 2006

Incomplete

It’s strange, that the things you’ve been wanting to get away from are the things you miss most, when they aren’t there.

Little things- your desk, your cupboard, even the framed picture on your side-table… their absence makes a huge difference. My daily routine goes into a whirl without all of these.


People. We don’t realize their importance in our life until they’re not there. I was so used to seeing my mum around in the morning…calling out from the kitchen. Or dad, doing his exercise. Or my brother looking for the newspaper (that I rightfully claimed before him).Or even the maid going about her chores. I never thought twice about all this, until now. God, how I miss them all.

Now it’s just me. In a bright, hollow room. In someone else’s house. With someone else’s bed. And someone else’s family.

But living my own life.

I’m settling in with time. But don’t want to settle down too much with this new routine. Coz more changes will follow. New things in place of the old. And then I’ll have to start from scratch. Again. And again.

18 comments:

Mr. Maverick said...

Good. You are growing up.

Arun

Arz000n said...

God, how I miss them all.
Now when I wake up in the morning...and think about ma family...I know I'll not be able to see them for like an year now...

Is it worth doing all this...just for teh sake of few extra money??

I dont know...I can understand wht you going thru...

Greetz...

The Phoenix said...
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The Phoenix said...

Detached attachment.

It's worked for me.

But for how long can it go on?

Random said...

creative destruction...change is life!

desperado said...

crude as it may sound...we all get used to it...its just that initial phase....n then times when u come back from home or any special festival or occassion that this feeling of being away from home hits the hardest....other than that we all get back to our daily grind and learn to live with it

though not easy by any stretch of the imagination

take care

Stone said...

....time is an effective ally, teaches a thing or two daily!!
Take care!

anuj said...

well .. things r nt d same as we grow ..
ur nt as innocent as u wud have been whn u were a kid .. neither am I .. neither is nebdy else ..


so things ought to change .. bt cherish d memories .. :)

evrything happens for a reason ..

tc .

the Monk said...

we need to catch up...what have you been up to, and where in God's name are you, now?

Mirage said...

@Arun: Am I?? I thought I was past the awkward age!

@Arz000n: *Hugs* Take care!

@Phoenix: Until we learn to make it a way of life i guess.

@Ravin: Hehe...destruction it is!

@Dhruv: yea...bt that takes a while!

@Stone: Yep, n i look fwd to being a fast learner! Oh that rhymed btw!

@Anuj: Hmm...Reminds of the song, The Reason by Hoobastank...I'm nt a perfect person...:)

@Varun: Read my previous posts and u'll knw exactly where I am!

TripleSix said...
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TripleSix said...

hmmm...i know wat u r tryin to say..

u know wat megha..i nvr knew things like table,cupboard,side picture would be smthin relevant enough to be missed,along with ur close ones...cos i nvr got any time to spendwith any of it,cos i have been in a boardin school since my childhood...except,i rem i missed sleepin for a longer time in the mornin,mom instin on havin my milk after i get up,n my dog...

but while i was readin all of tht,i felt,in a way,tht it's good to be away frm ur close ones for a certain period of time,only to realise how imp they r and also lifestyle like this helps u be more independent n discipline..

but i have done all of this immensely,n now i'm left with nthin but voidness inside me,cos i have become so detached,cold,cynical n left with no sentiments which is imp to have at some point of the day...today i realise tht i have become devoid of my close ones,company or for tht matter smthin in connection to what i wrote in the "coffee n cigs"post..n i even feel,tht this is not wat i wanted either...my parents' separation,my brother far off,n not being able to see my dad everyday...imagine seein him after 5 yrs,last november,n i totally lost out to my emotions...i jst didn't feel anythin when i saw him....

i have become so habitual of it...n tht is so crude n cold of me to do so...

all i can say is..plez,dn't end up like me...i'm glad u dn' want to continue with this routine..i'm really glad...take care

hotICE said...

very true.. they say, one knows the value of the most superficial thing when its just not there. When its there, we take it for granted. And when its not there, we go crazy;-) Simple

The Ostracized said...

hey I know wat u mean and how you feel.cos even I am away from home for about a month now and mayb away for a few yrs.at home we just take things for granted.but when we r at someone's else's place we have to think about whther we are doing the right thing,whethr we are saying the right words cos others might feel offended.
but in a way its better cos then we can be self dependent...u know wat I mean :)

Mirage said...

@nika: thnx yaar nika...that was very encouraging. Miss u lots!

@hotice: Precisely!

@ostracized: of course everything has its +ve n -ve points. but we gotta adapt ourselves to change. i guess thts the purpose of us living by ourselves... :)

amod!! said...

Extremely well put. While no words can make up for the things that you're missing, I would just say that life with family is definitely better than living alone or with friends. But nothing is permanent as you will keep shifting your base depending on the requirements..
Hope you're happy!

dwaipayan said...

we all have to go through this phase someday. and I know I'll have to go through this soon.. may be in one or 2 years..and I'm so waiting for it ( and I know how I'd fret then)

Rohit Talwar said...

People. We don’t realize their importance in our life until they’re not there.

How true!

And as many oldies would say, You're growing up! Wonder when and how I will! :P :P :P

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