Sunday, February 12, 2006

A new beginning

After Dadaji and Dadima, she was the eldest in the family. We were broken after they expired, the family got scattered. She held us together. We had someone to turn to for advice in our times of distress, and celebration. Had.

In the last couple of months, she was bedridden, paralysed from head to toe; a vegetable. The doctors fractured her body with injections and drips. Nothing worked. She slipped into a coma. They revived her. Her heart gave up. They put her on a life support system. Life- support. The word scares me. Living with the help of machines. No, not living. Existing.

The last straw was when her kidneys failed. There was no hope. She was begging to take our leave. But we held on...increasing her pain with each passing day.

Today they removed the machines. Today, they set her free. We knew this had to happen. But the realisation that she's gone...its unbearable. We're unsure of what is going to happen next. We're unsure if we'll live up to her expectations. The thought of being on our own, without her blessings...

Its time we learnt to take our own decisions. It'll be tough without her. Maybe we'll make some mistakes. But we'll also learn from them. She taught us a lot when she was with us. Her teachings will not go in vain.

May God bless her.

28 comments:

D'yer Mak'er said...

i'm so sorry...

p.s. please hold yourself n' take care.

cherubic_chipmunk said...

hey i kno u really feel bad but wat has happened is for de better-existin lik that wud've been very tough for her...and wat do ya mean without her blessings?wherever she is,she's gonna bless u n rest assured god will bless her soul...take care

amod!! said...

:( write about her in your personal diary..and you can relive the times you had with her..

friendinneed said...

take care sweetie

milo said...

tc :-)

Bhim said...

I pray that she finds peace and happiness wherever she is.

Koi Pahailee said...

yeah...GOD BLESS HER
its important that one never forgets the loved ones after they die...u shud always pray for her...

Mirage said...

@d'yer m'aker: Thnx for ur concern honey...m fine.

@arvind: I hope so buddy, i really hope so! Thnx a lot!

@amod: I stopped keeping diaries a long time ago...thts why i blogged. This helped too, tho!

@bhajji: thnx sweetie

@milo: :)

@bhim: Thanku fr ur wishes.

@koi pahailee: Its hard to forget them, in fact i dont think its possible. They'll always be with us in our hearts.

desperado said...

take care n be as u r..strong :)

anuj said...

There r certain things tht u cant help . Jst try to be calm & quite . U have the memories.

May god bless her.

TripleSix said...

there are things tht can only be learnt when made a mistake...

sry to hear bout wat hap....may her soul rest in peace..

take care,megha

MS said...

very sad,hope she lived as she hoped.
I am very sorry

My ID not me said...

Feel sorry for the bereavement. Have been unfortunate.. Never got to see Dadaji and Nanaji nor ever really experienced the elderly love of Dadi or Nani. Both Mom and Dad are the youngest among their family.

Arz000n said...

Oh boy...
May her soul rest in peace.

Huggz Mirage...

Mr. Maverick said...

May God bless her.

Btw, have you read about Euthanasia, one of the most debated topic in Europe.

Take care
Arun

manuscrypts said...

peace....

Mirage said...

@dhruv: thnx buddy... i will.

@anuj: Yea and those memories are worth a lot...

@nika: Yea...thnx hun

@ms: I think she did...

@vipul: its the exact opposite wid my folks...now theyre the eldest. N i have full faith that they'll carry out their responsibilties to the best of their ability.

@Arz000n: Thnx buddy... :)

@Arun: No havent read abt it... will look it up. Btw, the new pic looks awesome! Thnx a lot man! :)

Mirage said...

@manuscrypts: Hmm...

Stone said...

May her soul rest in peace..
Take care of urself!

!xobile said...

god will always bless all. her n u.. n me too. :)

Stephanie said...

happy valentines day

Mirage said...

@stone: thnx man

@zeexaggeratorr: hehe, yea u too!

@stephanie: thnku...n same to u

dwaipayan said...

I'm sorry. but i know u can cope up with this situation. even though it feels reaaly bad to loose a loved one, we have to accept it as a part o life and get along. that's all...

shrek said...

i was speaking to a friend and a mentor of mine about a month back(10th jan when my grandma passed away), and he said this- " be happy she had a long life with successful grandchildren. There is nothing better you can get from God than a good and fulfulling life."

Rohit Talwar said...

I'm really sorry.

I know how it is in such a situation. Take care of yourself.

cherubic_chipmunk said...

hey sweet one-'THOU ART TAGGED'...chk ma blog for details-methinks u're gonna hav a tuff time completin' this coz many clones've come already...

the Monk said...

I'm sorry...keep her memory alive...what more can I say?

johney said...

It is said that to the wise, death is but the beginning of another journey. The Lord is mercyful.