Monday, March 10, 2008

One fine day…



There are times when life gives you surprises. Big ones. This is one of them.

In my 22 years, I have seen several ups and downs, in terms of my career, friendships, relationships and life, in general. I thought, I had more or less experienced every phase of life, and could deal with just about anything that came my way. I was wrong.

It was an ordinary, boring Tuesday, and I was just lazing around. Mum returned from one of her get-togethers and shook me out of my daydream. “Wake up! I have news for you!” She proceeded to tell me there’s a ‘rishta’ that’s come for me, and what a great guy he is, and his family is even nicer, yada yada. I ignored most of it, and lashed out at her when it started to get annoying.

The rest of my family gathered together for a “meeting” in the evening, and ripped apart, the profile of the guy. After about 45 mins of discussion, they declared him, “the perfect guy”. The next thing I knew, my profile and pictures were emailed to the family, and phones were ringing off the hook. What followed was a whole week of frustration, screaming, shouting and lots of tears.

The same week, on Saturday, his parents came to meet me. I was cordial. Everything went ‘well’, and they decided to call the boy to Delhi for a meeting. The whole of next week went by, as if in a moment. At first, when I met him, I thought he was this really knowledgeable, intelligent, mature, worldly-wise individual. But when we actually got talking, I realized there really was a fun side to him, and he allayed my fears of “our mental wavelength” not matching. Though I’ve met him only twice, I can’t deny the fact, that I did like him. He has this ‘genuineness’ about him that is truly unique. Now of course I can’t testify for everything, but for a first meeting, he made a pretty good impression.

So, the surprise part is that I am getting married. Today is the betrothal ceremony. I still can’t believe it, as it’s all happened so fast. And on top of that, it’s an arranged marriage. The wedding, of course will happen much later. But then again, I can’t say, with the way things are going. I just hope, I’ve made the right decision. Through all this, I’ve learnt one thing: if something has to happen, it will. And that everything is OK in the end.

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

99 Problems

Oh god, the times couldn’t be worse. My head’s exploding with all the stress…and guess what, it’s not work-related. I didn’t know, being at home could be more taxing! And to top it all, one of my best friends isn’t talking to me. It’s amazing how one stupid joke can make someone so ‘judgmental’ about you. They start pointing fingers at your friendship. Wow. That feels nice, doesn’t it? It really hurts, though… really does. Hard to fight tears, but hey, what the heck, life sure is a bitch.

I know I’ve given the title as 99 problems, but there aren’t as many. Although it just feels that way. I just can’t stand mess, and today when I got back from work, my whole room was topsy turvey. Just kinda lost it, and screamed at my folks. I know I’m wrong, but am too stubborn to apologize. Bah!

There are other things on my mind, that I can’t really disclose at the moment. But they sure are making me lose sleep. The thought of thinking about what’s going to happen is freaking me out. Thank God I’m not coming back home tomorrow. Maybe I’ll find some solace with my friends. Sighh…

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

It's all fake

Caution: Controversial post ahead. Nor recommended for people with weak hearts. Really.

The other day while having breakfast, Mum had switched on to one of those zillion ‘spiritual’ channels on TV, where some very “wise” person was ‘imparting wisdom’. I couldn’t help overhearing what she was saying. The gist of what she was preaching was something like, Christians do this, Muslims do that, but us Hindus- we are supreme, we try and bring the world together…in short, we are God’s gift to mankind. I smirked, and told my mom to stop watching that crap. Of course she disagreed with me. What are mothers for, after all?!

Anyway, I thought about that TV programme on my way to work. I thought to myself, ‘how can they allow such a thing to be aired on national TV?’ The woman was clearly instigating religious differences. She was droning about Hindus as if we were the best thing to have happened to the world, and the others were all trash! It’s not like I’m against any God, I know we’re free to practice any religion of our choice. But what irks me is why they try to compete with each other in the name of religion. Are they so insecure about their foundation, that they have to judge their ‘success’ by the number of followers they have? We all know we’re not saints. What good is a man who prays every morning, and beats his wife every night? He just lives in the illusionary world he’s created for himself, about being good and benevolent. Every time he commits a sin, he validates it by telling himself, it’s in the name of God. I’m a good man. This is not a sin at all!

You want to know what we ‘Hindus’ actually do? Well, we’re a bunch of hypocrites who stab each other in the back, the first chance we get. We rape our women, burn them, even, and treat them like dirt most of the time. We fight with our family members over frivolous, materialistic things, and we do not hesitate to murder each other if we get the opportunity. We use expletives after every second word when we talk and think it to be the most natural thing in the world. We cheat. We steal. We hate. We conspire. We kill.

Ring a bell? The funny thing about this is, you’ll find these kinds of people everywhere. In every religion. I guess there isn’t so much difference between us after all. So why do we want to create disparities, when none exist?

Disclaimer: It’s not like I’m against any religion. I’m not. And I’m not even an atheist. It’s just sad to see how we have made it a discipline that is imposed on people instead of a way of reaching God. We’ve segregated ourselves into so many communities, it’s almost like there are breeding records for animals.

Friday, February 01, 2008

Shy's Musical Tag

Taking up Shy's tag after a long time. This was kinda interesting since it involved music! All you gotta do is put your media player in the shuffle mode and every new song becomes the answer to the questions below. No cheating people, you might get some really funny answers, but some songs would be so apt, you'd be surprised! So here goes:

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Vindicated- Dashboard Confessional, OST Spiderman 2... (er didn't make too much sense!)

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Aicha- Outlandish (hmm....sure)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Baatein kuchh ankahee si- Life in a Metro (ankahee si...no no)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Here without you- 3 Doors down (Yea well, that wasn't so hard to figure out)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
Life for rent- Dido (hey this sounds right)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Now and forever- Richard Marx (

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Bend the world- Thermal and a quarter (That's what they keep telling me though)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Wake up call- Prodigy (To get one from them)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Killing me Softly- Hugh Grant (the song or Hugh Grant!)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Roshni Se- Asoka (???)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Awaken- Them clones (ah yes, awakening)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I want to break free-Queen (Heeeheee)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Shaam- Water (Aw that's too sad)

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Almost a whisper- Yanni (hmmm.....gotta experience this)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Saawariya (Oh come on)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Said I loved you but I lied- Michael Bolton (*Evil grin*)

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Your love alone is not enough- Manic Street Preachers (Really? Awwww)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
This love is taking it’s toll on me (Doesn't quite go, does it)

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
Hotride- Prodigy (oooh)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Of Wolf and Man- Metallica (They're animals for sure!)

WHAT SHOULD YOU POST THIS AS?
Meray Log- Noori (Yesh!)

Whew! So that's that! Now Milo, Divinity, TripleSix, Rohit, Annie, Ashu, John F....actually anyone who's got the time and who can be a sport can go do this tag! Have fun folks!