I'm laying in my bed facing up, looking at the whirling fan...listening to Robbie Williams singing in my ears... "not sure I understand. this role I've been given...I sit and talk to God, and He just laughs at my plans...my head speaks a language, I don't understand..." its almost hypnotic. I feel one with it.
The room is dark with the lights off and curtains drawn. Perfect. I realise if I lay like this, I feel my insides going numb. I don't feel anything. My eyes are open wide but I'm just staring into space. The only thing I hear, besides the song, is the sound of my breathing. Feel like I'm under a spell, a spell of peace. Numerous thoughts are running in my mind, as if in a frenzy. but a strange calm has fallen over me...as if time has stopped and the world has come to a standstill.
I almost feel crucified by an invisible force, but there's no pain, no tears. Everything around me is frozen...
I want to get up and go out, but just cant move. My body refuses to respond to anything...feel paralysed.
And slowly, I drift away...
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halo miss frozen..nw i knw y u nt pickin d phone;-)
hmm...one person I really like very much said, "We are most alive when confronting death!"
Feeling alive are we?
@milo: u got that right!
@maninthebox: i havent felt so 'alive' in years!
the best time to analyse life .
all alone n just u no one else not even in thoughts.
n best music to listen for this time is Enigma- Cross of Changes
ok , i will give ya an easy solution, take a pencil and draw a spiral on plate of fan when it is in motion( u just hold the pencil...and spiral shall be there..)
Now next time u r in ur cruxification stage u'll not only be frozen but u 'll doze soon enough..
and hypnotic ofcourse..for further guidance u can ping me..:D
@dhruv: oh yes enigma's awesome!!
@anubhav: lol! i don't wanna b hypnotised man! but i'll ping u anyway!
well u weren't frozen...u were lazy in simple words! There's so much to do yaar, but this laziness kills me...
my piece of music under these circumstances: Coming Back to Life, Pink Floyd
U only see what ur eyes want to see
how can i feel what u wanted to be
ur FROZEN when ur hearts not open...........ummmmmm....
sorry cant hum that tune. Well, when u sense ur breathing that the best time to talk to urslf. Sounds insane...:P
@amod: ooh yea...i guess i didnt think of it that way! but now that u mention it, i was feeling awfully lazy!!
@anuj: lol! i knw it does!
and ye drift away into a deep slumber...
well those kinda solitary moments are my most cherished...standin alone in the ground watchin the rain...stand in da terrace and gaze at da stars..
@sriram: yea man its the best way to calm ur nerves! lost in the serenity of the night...tho i hardly see any stars these days!
oh u just needed to change the song,perhaps angels by robbie williams?
Hey, its been a while since you posted this so I hope you are feeling ok now
@hit: oh yes thts a cool song too
@kroopa: yea i'm absolutely fine thnx! just ran out of ideas thts all!! ;)
never listened to Robbie Williams, but it happens to me when I listen to Klaus Schulze.Have u heard?
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