Frozen

I'm laying in my bed facing up, looking at the whirling fan...listening to Robbie Williams singing in my ears... "not sure I understand. this role I've been given...I sit and talk to God, and He just laughs at my plans...my head speaks a language, I don't understand..." its almost hypnotic. I feel one with it.

The room is dark with the lights off and curtains drawn. Perfect. I realise if I lay like this, I feel my insides going numb. I don't feel anything. My eyes are open wide but I'm just staring into space. The only thing I hear, besides the song, is the sound of my breathing. Feel like I'm under a spell, a spell of peace. Numerous thoughts are running in my mind, as if in a frenzy. but a strange calm has fallen over me...as if time has stopped and the world has come to a standstill.

I almost feel crucified by an invisible force, but there's no pain, no tears. Everything around me is frozen...

I want to get up and go out, but just cant move. My body refuses to respond to anything...feel paralysed.

And slowly, I drift away...

Words of Wisdom!

Funny expression of life!!

Horror-scopes

Every morning when i read the papers i esp look fwd to the astrology section in the supplements. It hardly ever turns out to b true but i like reading it anyway.

They said yellow is my LUCKY colour for today. i personally hate yellow...but decided to smell a yellow flower anyway. Flowers are always nice...or so i thought until i got stung by a wasp; ironically that too was yellow.
The sun's yellow...and at this moment its shining real bright...restricting me from going out anywhere. no luck there...
My niece smothered yellow paint over my arm just after i'd had my bath.
Ok i guess u got the point...
The daily horoscope that comes in my mail is asking me if i "tend to be self-effacing"...what the...??
They said my lucky months this year would be January and May...i had my exams during these months.
They said my romantic months would be February and June. I was on a train on 14th Feb. And June is almost over but no romance yet...!

The thing is when i know that nothin the astrolgers say is ever gonna b true why am i always intrigued by them??!! Could b curiosity, or mayb i just like to knw what'll happen next...or mayb its just plain stupidity!!

Its time for lunch...guess wht i'm having. yellow dal!! ugh!

Its over...

I'm sitting by the window
staring at the horizon,
wondering to myself
if this life has a reason

Meandering down dark streets,
no one by my side
I look up at the starry sky,
searching for that light

Would it really make a difference, i muse
if I wasnt there...
maybe they'll shed a tear or two,
and send up a prayer

But everything will be
just the way it was
and one of them missing
with not much loss

I caress it with my fingers
Feels cold, hard and beautiful
I pick it up and load it,
and put it to my skull

Close my eyes, a tear rolls down
Pull the trigger...

...and its over.