A bitter reality

This is a very personal post. I was contemplating whether I shud post it or not, but I had to get it out ...its killing me.

Its about 2 of the most wonderul people I know and love...my brother and bhabhi.
They are the happy-go-lucky kinda people you come across...the ones that find a way to make you smile no matter how down youre feeling. They are the ones who will lend you a patient ear, hear you out and then find a solution to make all your troubles melt away. The ones that go out of the way to help you get out of a sticky situation. The ones that smile when they feel like crying, or laugh so you wont notice their tears.

My brother and bhabhi got married in February 2000. We were all so happy. My bhabhi is a jewel and my brother knew what she's worth. They love each other like crazy. In these 5 years theyve helped each other so much, and they have been rewarded well for their efforts. They have everything, but are still incomplete. They dont have a child. They cant have a child. And this bitter truth cuts through them like a knife.

They have been trying to have a baby for the past 3 years, but everything they do just falls short. Everytime, they come home, disappointed. And still dont say a word to anyone. They put on a brave face and smile through the pain. But I know, how lonely they feel. I see the yearning in their eyes when they see a baby. I see them look at each other with despair when they hear that some friend of theirs is expecting. I have seen them hug each other and cry softly. And I feel helpless, standing on the sidelines wishing there's something I can do to make them happy...

And again....

The tag season is on...and its catching on pretty fast! Its caught me twice...and tho I've tried, there's no way out!


I. 7 things i want to do before i die:
1. live!!
2. find a job where the lesser i work, the more i get paid! any ideas?
3. learn to drive!! the car turns into a monster the minute i touch the wheel!
4. open a dog shelter
5. make a place in the hearts of people who matter
6. go on a world tour
7. find my kinda guy...they've just stopped manufacturing them!! :(

II. 7 things i can do:
1. bake a cake!!
2. dance...sort of!
3. tidy up!
4. sleep for hours on end
5. bug people!
6. blow someone off for even trying to hurt an animal!! grr
7. be sugary sweet to people i like...and mean it!!

III. 7 things i say the most:
1. Oh f***!
2. Oh my gawd!
3. Seriously...
4. Shut up!5. Yeaaa?
6. Shit yaar!
7. No way!!

IV. 7 things i cant do:
1. Study!
2. be someone i'm not
3. cant drive...yet! :(
4. sit still without music
5. trust people easily
6. cant make conversation
7. cant look eye to eye

V. 7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. sense of humour
2. height
3. wit
4. honesty
5. confidence
6. big hands!!
7. sophisticated sense of dressing

VI. 7 Celebrity crushes:
1. John Abraham!! Mmmuah!
2. Tom Cruise
3. Keanu Reeves
4. Abhishek Bachhan
5. Hrithik Roshan
6. Jude Law
7. Jason Statham

VII. 7 people i want to tag:
This is tough!
1. Milo
2. Jayant
3. Triple Six
4. Steve
5. Cherubic Chipmunk
6. Anuj
7. Dhruv

Whew! Done wid it....please people no more tags!! Please...please...please!!! <:O

Torn

Walking along that familiar stretch
Times gone by, reflect in my mind
Smiles, whispers, moments shared
And then, regret, for being so blind

Blind for believing in fantasies
Naïve for trusting a lying snake
Crazy enough to fall in love
Foolish to put myself at stake

Locked myself in an illusion
Lived a façade for so long
With your honeyed words and false charm
Couldn’t place right from wrong

Then the bubble burst suddenly
And reality stepped in
But it was already too late
You’d already sunk your teeth in

You clawed at my trust, ripped my heart out
Hacked away my love, and slaughtered my soul
I whimpered, as life ebbed away
Betrayed, I let death take its toll

Days, months, years passed
The pain is still etched within
Still trying to let go of the past
Still trying, to live again...

Happy Diwali!!!

Hey everyone! Wishing you all a very very happy Diwali!! Have a blast....but go easy on the crackers! :D God bless!